My Lack of Knowing The Words

Hey, readers!

Now am gonna write something about me. The short story is I was being silly and ended up in a bad experience. And here goes the long story…

I chatted with a good friend over a mobile messenger yesterday. I have known him for almost six months and he was my favorite male friend and we connected easily for some reasons. Call him JQ. In the beginning of our friendship, he was trying so much to get into my pants, but then he made up his mind because he found out what kind of person I am. I really like him, physically, emotionally. We kinda connected til last night.

I talked about my ex sending message to me about something that I need an advice. I asked JQ for an advice, and he gave such good advices. Til then we had a bit argument about something. He said, “Get over yourself, Christina. Bye and have fun with your ex” I was a bit shocked, wondering if he really means goodbye. Well, my English is okay and I didn’t know the meaning of “Get over” Duh, my lack of knowing!

And then I soon asked a friend who’s native speaker, but dayumm she replied like ages and I just sent a reply to JQ “Get over it. Bye” ~ and my friend replied, she said it means “Let it go” and it’s not good words to say. Ahhh! You know what JQ just replied after? “Bye you b*tch” I was like, “What?!” “What’s happening here?” Okay, I got it. It was me, I didn’t know what I am doing. I didn’t know what he’s feeling. I don’t know what he’s thinking of me. My intuition said that he might just have bad thought about me or be jealous when I talked about my ex. And I didn’t listen to my intuition because am a sensing person. And yes, it’s just because some words that should have not been sent. Now I lost him as a good friend.

Anyway, if by any chance JQ reads my blog. Haha, well who knows, I keep myself being hopeful. I want him to know that I am not that kind of women/girls that he’s ever known. I won’t look back into past. For me, past is past, future is future, present is now! There won’t be any way to have feelings back and I am a LOYAL person for no excuses. I am not angry or mad at JQ of yelling at me “b*tch” over text, no. It was his expression of emotion, I understand. And I am sorry for being silly for saying words that I didn’t really know.

The learnt for you, lovely readers: Be careful with your words when you don’t know the words. And for the better world…let’s make peace with others, be true to yourself, find someone who can appreciate you for who you are. Because life is real short!

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Wait For You

Dannic & Shermanology – Wait For You Lyrics

[Release Date 11/3/2014]

Till my last breath
Till nothing is left
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

I’ll be here
Till all the ocean runs dry
I’ll be patience after time
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
Until the sun stop burning
The world stops turning
I’ll wait for you

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
Until the sun stop burning
The world stops turning
I’ll wait for you
I’ll wait for you

Till my heart stops
Whatever cost
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

Till we’re all
All just memories lost
And mountains crumble to dust
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
Until the sun stop burning
The world stops turning
I’ll wait for you
I’ll wait

Frida Kahlo, A Beauty From Mexico

Bring me to the arts! Dayumm, I am so much into Frida Kahlo’s arts. Expressionless. Magical. Those beautiful crowns. Geeszhh, I wish she is alive, I might wanna go to her exhibition and say, “What an enchanting art!”

Alright, to you who don’t really know who she is. I will introduce her. Frida Kahlo was a painter. Born in July 6, 1907 with name Magdalena Carmen Frieda Kahlo y Calderón. Kahlo’s work is remembered for its “pain and passion” and its intense, vibrant colors. Her work has been reminded by feminists for its uncompromising depiction of the female experience and form. She rejected the “surrealist” label on her works, she believed that they reflected more of her reality than her dreams (and I do agree! Her paintings are so real, in my opinion as a dilettante). One surrealist named André Breton described her art as a “ribbon around a bomb”.

Frida was married to a Mexican artist named Diego Rivera. She suffered lifelong health problems, many of which stemmed from a traffic accident in her teenage years. These problems are reflected in her works, more than half of which are self-potraits of one sort or another. She suggested, “I paint myself because I am so often alone and because I am the subject I know best”. Another statement she said, “I was born a bitch. I was born a painter.”

Frida created some 200 paintings, drawings, and sketches. 55 of her 143 paintings are her self-potraits. She had her first exhibition in Mexico in 1953. A local critic said, “It is impossible to separate the life and work of this extraordinary person. Her paintings are her biography.” Yes, beside her health problems from the accident, she also had a stormy, passionate relationship survived infidelities, the pressures of careers, divorce, remarriages, her affairs and also her inability to have children. She once said, “I suffered two grave accidents in my life…One in which a street car knocked me down and the other was Diego”. The accident ruined her physically, and Diego ruined her emotionally. Then, once she’d been asked what to do with her body when she dies, she answered, “Burn it…I don’t wanna be burried. I have spent too much time laying down…Just burn it!” She died in her  47 in July 13, a week after her birthday. Her last note in the diary said: “I hope the end is joyful – and I hope never to return – Frida.”

That’s a little of her that I can share. Why her arts impress me? Because they are real. Yes, am not into something surreal. And despite of her arts, the ways she lived her life impress me also. She struggled – all those pain that she suffered. And she could make it til the end. She won the battle of life. Because I know some people who complain much about their life without making efforts, just complain. And hey, that’s a learnt! Have a good day.

The First Page

Hey,

it’s been ages that I am not in blogging world. I am not new to blogging, I am just quite new to WordPress. And to be honest, WordPress is more fascinating than the others (based on my research). Then “Hello World!” again.

In my first page, I can only let you know that I’ll blog about everything – everything that interests me for sure. So, feel free to read my blog or give some comments. Take care!